Yup....the picture says it all. LOL....it's not all that bad....but this is an acurate picture of Sunday night! We are all still trying to get meshed together. It's hard. The kids miss thier parents...and we don't "know" them. We are still trying to figure out where the baby is 'at'. I think we got it. We are now feeding her baby cereal before bed and she is sleeping better. We are introducing stage one baby food today. I always made Colton's {my youngest son} baby food....so we are not used to buying jars. Other than that....we have had fit throwing, biting....lots & lots of biting. So much biting that we are now required to keep a log for when Matt bites! All 3 are in diapers so we have had countless diaper changes. We have had a million appointments and we have about 6 or 7 specialists that come to the house for the kids weekly...all different people and all different days. We are stretched.
BUT.....to see God's hand at work is awesome! All that hard, stinky stuff I just wrote is true....that's our life for a while. It will smooth out, it always does. But, along with all that 'stuff' are some pretty cool moments! We have got to see the oldest of the boys start to trust us enough to go potty. {some times!} We have seen that the middle child stopped pulling his hair out! We have seen both boys sit and eat real food. We have seen the first time the boys were in the woods. We have seen the boys go to bed with smiles because they could show us thier "own" beds. We have seen the oldest boy call our house 'home'. We have seen the children happy to come back here, to this house, after seeing their parents. We have seen that the boys are responding to directions and doing what they are told {most of the time}. We have seen that the kids will hold hands and be silent while we pray as a family. We have seent he baby start to use her leg muscles {they didnt know if her legs worked, nobody ever held her...just laid in a crib} We have seen that baby can indeed hear {they thought she was deaf, nobody talked to her} We have seen that baby eats like a PIG { we were told she has failure to thrive, nobody loved her} We have seen baby fall in love with my husband and play a game where they stick tounges out at each other. We have seen baby giggle and laugh because she has more friends {all my kids} than she knows what to do with! We have seen baby's brothers be happy to see here instead of try to hurt her {we were told the youngest tried to hurt her and the oldest was scared of her}.....
What have I learned......so far I have learned to not push and just wait on God. I have a tendancy to think I "know" what is best for these kids {meaning all of my foster kids :0) } and yesterday wasn't soon enough for the "best" for them....so I push....hard. It gets me in trouble. County workers don't like that. So....this time, I am not pushing....God can handle it! And of course...He is! I was told by a driver yesterday that the kids have court tomorrow and they are going to try to change the goal to pull the oldest boy out of preschool and keep him home with me! WOW! What an awesome God thing! I am learning to not expect too much. I am learning to accept the kids parents and know I need to pray for them and not get mad and judgemental. I have learned that my job is not to organize all the counties "stuff" {they like it when you do!} and let them....my job is to care for the kids, that's it. I have learned to go with the flow and things go much better...meaning, school will get done...but may be off schedule a bit...stuff like that. I have learned that I am grateful I run a very organized home. I have learned that it was good to train my own children so they do not need so much direction and I have the time to focus on the new kids and their needs. My own kids know the routine and what to do, so they just do it. I have learned that God really does have a plan for me and He will have His way. We had a TOTALLY different plan for this time 'round in foster care....His plan won out. Go figure :0)
*Spell check wouldn't work & I don't have time to look this over...sorry !!! ***
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